It’s Time

Oh, please don’t go—we’ll eat you up—we love you so!

~ Maurice Sendak, Where The Wild Things Are

School starts on Wednesday and I can already feel the energy shift in the house.

Soren is always vocal about his feelings. If he is happy, you know it and if he’s annoyed, he will gladly tell you. As for school, he told us he is nervous to meet new friends and wants to be back at his old school. He doesn’t seem necessarily excited, but I have high hopes his outgoing attitude will overshadow some of the nerves he may have about being back in a traditional classroom.

Elsa on the other hand is quiet. When quiet mode sets in, we know Elsa is withdrawing and feeling some big emotions. She already told me, “well, I am pretty sure I won’t have any friends the first day.” That’s the attitude!

I don’t fault her though because Wednesday is a big day and one that she probably has been thinking about since we moved in December. All her fears and anxieties have been lingering at the surface, just waiting to overflow at this particular moment.

Thankfully, Sophie seems ready for school. She has the typical “I don’t want summer to be over” blues, but in terms of school, she is excited to see friends and start new classes. Looking back, I am so grateful she decided to start public school in March and her calmness will be very much appreciated Wednesday morning.

I have many mixed emotions about the kids starting school. For seven months, we’ve been inseparable and I’m not sure a quiet house is something I am comfortable with.

While I crumble a bit inside, I’m trying to focus on the positive, which is having one-on-one time with Ellinor. Just like I did with her siblings, she will get to have her special solo time with mom. Just E and me kicking it during the day, anxiously waiting for our friends to get home from school.

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